Saturday, July 19, 2008
@ 14:28
if time were to turn back i rather it will stop at the time where i was still a small children. i don have to think so much, else i still can eat, slp, play. Until now i realise so many thing have change. im no longer the small kid. i have already grown up. i have to solve everything by myself. last post fer today. i wont blog anymore. i would like to erase every little single thing i have written here. mayb i will regret some day. but who will ever noe.i will let god to decide. if is yours it will alway be yours.byebye!!
Friday, July 18, 2008
@ 23:53
Finally im back home frm work. tml will be my off day again. schdule fer tis week was like so relaxing. but im not relaxing. feel so fed up tis few day. i cant find anyone to talk to. and until juz now i donno why i sudden feel like saying everything out. i feel that when i say out my heart feel much more better than i keep it to myself. i wanted to expose it out juz wan him to noe my feeling. in the end he told me tat he lie to me was want to make me happy. tear roll down after i saw those msg he reply me. well tis wasnt trying to make me happy. instead of making me feel more disappointed. i tho u were the one who will UNDERSTAND me the most. but i guess im wrong ba. u don understand me well enough. somehow i rather choose not to noe the truth. but im still as clever as u. i knew u were lying but i choose to believe it. until tat day i finally noe tat actually u were lying to me.
why my lifes alway fill wif all those unhappy thing. i have nv regret been-ing wif u. i alway wan the trust among us. but it seem that u don trust me. tat y u choose to lie to me. well tat enough of it. i shouldnt say so much.
nites readers.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
@ 23:14
TWO WORD TO DESCRIBE.
SAD & DISAPPOINTED
not becos im not understanding or not caring. but wat i think alway come true. everytime wat i think sure alway come true. and it alway come wif a bad thing. i cant have a proper day of meeting him. instead of those stupid reason tat come from u. U juz don even noe how i feel. mayb u juz feel tat i don care. but actually im not. you juz make me think so much when ever tis thing happen.
but some how my thinking may be right. but i wont blog it out. mayb i juz keep to myself instead of saying out here. i juz feel so disappointed each time, when u say u not meeting me. the feeling was like making me so......................... u juz wont understand. =( or maybe im not understanding enough.
anyway tis wasnt the first time already. i understand. and i will try be more understanding.
mayb i need time bahs.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
@ 18:03
The precious darling
What a boring saturday i got. althought is my off day but to me it seem nothing. wake up at 11plus tis morning. ate my breakfast cum lunch. after tat watch tv till 1plus 2. mummy ask me acc her out. so we head to chinatown. bought some stuff and had our early dinner there and den back home. see how my weekend was like. my dear working now. wont be meeting him today. 1 week 7 day, i only get to meet him 1 day tis week. our meeting day was like getting lesser. donno WHAT TO SAY. he alway meet friend more than he meet me. alright i shall blog till here. bye readers
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
@ 23:32
juz finish bathing not long. meet my dear juz now. he drive me to town. had dinner at cine after tat walk to taka. wanna get my thing in the end i cant find it. so walk to far east. & he went to find his friend. at tat moment i sudden think lot of thing, i don even noe how to say it out. cos even i say i guess it will still be the same. comparing to wat ytd he say to me make me think even more. & my tear juz roll down so easily.
even a small matter i oso can let me tear roll down. after far east we took bus back to heeren and walk back to the car park. after tat he send me back. all the way back was like so silent. MY FAULT. i noe. he didnt say anything but every action of him have alr shown out. to him mayb nothing. but to me, all the way back he let me think alot. was rather feeling sad after im back home. tho the smile is still on my face. but it look so fake.after today i donno when i can get to meet him again. the hours of meeting was like lesser & lesser. mayb u didnt realise it. i noe even u nv get to meet me is ok wif u wan. but u didnt even noe tat how will i feel with all those thing. is like so so..... i would have rather go work than to stay at home thinking those stupid stuff. it might be stupid. but who's care. nobody care at all. i noe u have to acc yr friend. but yr time to yr friend is more than u acc me. i believe if u really think through u will realise it. =( bye readers
Friday, July 04, 2008
@ 23:00
=( siian. juz back home from work not long, finally after so many day of work tml is my off day. but sad thing was i finally wait till my off day in the end he tell me tml he work till 11. hais. which mean i cant meet him tml. hais watever it is. i donno how to plan my working time tgt wif his wan. when i work he nv work. when i nv work he work. ......... actually from wat u thinking was when u work i not happy, actually it wasnt like wat u think. why cant u think the other way. but if u wan think tis way, sorry i got nothing to say. cos i only have one sentence to say i juz feel tat our time of meeting is lesser tat all. not becos u work i not happy. u got the wrong ideas.
totally not in mood. pls don come disturb me.
night readers
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
@ 20:22
my blog is like rotting soon. i have been neglecting my blog. so now im back to blog. recently was like so lazy to blog, ever since i start work. but now was kinda bored so came in and blog. tired tired~ tml still got to work.
tis morning wake up at 9am. i tho i still got to go north point so i slept till 9am. in the end my incharge call me and ask not to go. so i didnt go and i wake up and rush to bath. cos i got no time alr. bath and prepare quickly and left my hse. walk to work and i tho i will late. but im not. was like so lazy to work every morning. cos im tired.
end work at 6plus. and left home. back home bath and eat. recently was like eating too much. make me feel tat im fat alr. omg. i think i need cut down my eating. if not i will carry a big tummy when im out. haas.
alright i shall blog till here will upload some pic which taken long ago alr. hurhur.
i miss my dearest dear so so so much.
What a boring saturday i got. althought is my off day but to me it seem nothing. wake up at 11plus tis morning. ate my breakfast cum lunch. after tat watch tv till 1plus 2. mummy ask me acc her out. so we head to chinatown. bought some stuff and had our early dinner there and den back home. see how my weekend was like. 
my blog is like rotting soon. i have been neglecting my blog. so now im back to blog. recently was like so lazy to blog, ever since i start work. but now was kinda bored so came in and blog. tired tired~ tml still got to work.