Friday, March 07, 2008
@ 21:50
ONE THING TO ASK U. JUZ HAVE TO ANSWER ME YES OR NO. DON HAVE TO SAY MUCH. AM I THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN YOUR HEART.????im down wif sadness since last night. my heart was like break into pieces? when i saw the messages, which let me think tat it was'nt sending to me. can someone tell me wat if u receive this kind of messages from yr on guy, wat is the feeling of yours?? all i can say is i have try my best to did my part, and i have try everything. im trying very hard not to cry last night, but i fail. the more i recall the messages u send, the more my heart is in pain. but i assume tat the message was send wrong, and u send it to me? u can deny tat tis msg is fer me, but from the way i read it, i noe tat wasnt fer me. u can keep saying tat is fer me. but, let me tell u. tis wasnt the first time le. is many many time. not becos i don believe u. when thing goes wrong, u alway trying to avoid, sayin tat is fer me. ALL I WAN IS A HONEST ANSWER FROM U. WHEATHER IS GOOD OR BAD, I STILL WANNA NOE. I DON WAN ANY LIES FROM U COS I ALWAY TRUST U TAT MUCH. i ask so much not becos i don trust or believe u. U wan me believe u. prove to me tat i really can believe u. but u didnt prove anything to me. when i keep asking, all yr vulgar language start to come out. i noe i ask is like nv ask. even how hard i try to ask i didnt get anything answer from u. im alway a FAILURE tat don get good thing in the return. maybe im nt a understanding or a good girlfriend to u. cos everything i get back is not a good wan. i don wanna ask fer more. cos i noe................. i don wanna think far anymore. cos i juz donno when im gonna break down. in juz a second, a min, a hrs or a day i mind juz leave u. nobody can predict everything. but i noe im gonna be strong and face everything, no matter wat happen. GUYS WONT UNDERSTAND HOW GIRL FEEL. U GUY ONLI CARE OF WAT U DO WAS RIGHT. BUT U GUY NV THINK TAT U HAVE HURT THE GIRL DEEPLY. AND RIGHT NOW MY HEART WAS LIKE HAVING A KNIFE CUTTING IN BTW. ITS JUZ SO PAIN. REALLY REALLY VERY PAIN. you gave me those feeling tat we wont last longer than that. but i will still treasure everything i have now, and i will live wif no regret. i will only leave u when u don need me anymore. if not, don think of leaving me. im sad and i need to cool down myself fer the meanwhile. seriously last night i already think thru, im telling myself tis is the onli last chance i will give u and give me. if tis is gonna happen again, im telling myself, tis will be the last chance. i really hope there is no more nx time. cos i learn to noe, the more i treasure the more im scare of losing u. juz becos i love u that much everything seem to be important till i don even noe where is the limit of mine. im really so scare, so scare. prove to me that yr heart there is onli me. but no others. i don wan u juz say, but do something to let me think tat im the onli one. i noe i did my very best le. i really don wanna ask fer more. let it nature take it course
