Saturday, December 15, 2007
@ 22:47
im back. wake up at 12 plus tis afternoon. so tired. after tat watch tv till 4plus. bath and prepare. went over to meet my dear. and around 9plus we left to my hse area fer dinner. actually im not hungry de. but he wan me eat. on the way there, he sudden say out tat ytd he didnt go home. i donno y im so angry at tat time. i cant control everything. and i told him no wonder ytd didnt even msg me. sometime i juz donno y u wanna lie to me. msg him ytd at 6plus in the morning, yet he reply back telling me he already reach home. so i went back to slp. so by lying to me u feel good?? wat if one day anything happen to u, and im like an idoit who donno anything. sometime u juz cant blame me fer not slping early. i juz wan u reach home safety, so i can slp well. but.... i really donno wat u thinking sometime. is u the one who promise mi 1mth u go drink 3time. but i guess everything u say out is juz a moment onli. u are the one who wan me control u. but i haven even control everything start to change back again. sometime i really feel so sad. hais. if tis is all the outcome. i guess i really donno wat to do le. im really really very tired:'( but im still glad tat u are honest to me. at least u did tell me u didnt go home ytd. actually i got something wanna ask or tell him de. but i donno how to ask bahs. hais.
